<meta name='google-adsense-platform-account' content='ca-host-pub-1556223355139109'/> <meta name='google-adsense-platform-domain' content='blogspot.com'/> <!-- --><style type="text/css">@import url(https://www.blogger.com/static/v1/v-css/navbar/3334278262-classic.css); div.b-mobile {display:none;} </style> </head><body><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar.g?targetBlogID\x3d4353695892601087919\x26blogName\x3d%E2%99%A5+Somewhere+out+there;\x26publishMode\x3dPUBLISH_MODE_BLOGSPOT\x26navbarType\x3dBLUE\x26layoutType\x3dCLASSIC\x26searchRoot\x3dhttps://the-summerescapade.blogspot.com/search\x26blogLocale\x3den_US\x26v\x3d2\x26homepageUrl\x3dhttp://the-summerescapade.blogspot.com/\x26vt\x3d8252093695043229941', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe" }); } }); </script>




stories biography escapes archives


Overview


ELAINE;
I ♥ God, Raffles Netball (Batch '11) and my friends to the max!

Screams



Wednesday, December 31, 2008
HAHA
I'm gonna write 101 new year resolutions. Or I'll try. :D
So year goes.

1. Clip up my fringe.
2. Avoid fierce teachers who wanna book me. 
3. Not get booked (esp. Mrs Anis)
4. Train my stamina
5. Stay in good health
6. Complete all the team runs!
7. Don't slack during training
8. C'div Zonal Champs '09
9. C'div Nationals Champs '09
10. Double Champs (c+bdiv)
11. Tripple Champs (Rgs+ Rjc!)
12. Nice juniors :/ 
13. Quit Jap or
14. Do better for Jap
15. Not fail geog
16. Not fail my algebra
18. Be able to go to church
19. More freedom ):
20. Global warming's condition gets better
21. Get nice teachers
22. Start liking Geog.
23. Complete all my school work
24. Esp math, math, math
25. Finish Learning Lab homework
26. Stop eating so much junk food
27. MONEY MONEY MONEY. :/
28. Stay awake during lessons
29. Stop doodling random stuff on worksheets.
30. Finish reading lit text. 
31. File my worksheets
32. Organise my table
33. Stop leaving so many things in the locker
34. Stop taking up space in other people's desks. 
35. Grow tall till 167-9 cm. (and stop there :/)
36. buy More clothes that aren't too short for me
37. buy CONVERSE SNEAKERS
38. buy New tote bag.
39. buy New back pack
40. buy My camera, which my dad won't steal ._.
41. Stop smsing during Jap class
42. Stop buying cup noodles during Jap class breaks
43. Stop eating so much candy
44. Buy sun-block!
45. Buy a new tumbler :/
46. Sleep as early as possible 
47. Read more
48. Read textbooks :/
49. Not get angry easily
50. Go online less often
51. Sms less.
52. Talk less in class
53. Pay more attention in class
54. Take down notes and note kope
55. Not sleep in class
56. Not quarrel with parents
57. Not get pissed with Brian (highly impossible) 
58. Stop waking up and then going back to sleep and then missing the school bus
59. Stop buying excessive amount of pens
60. Stop buying so many zigs.
61. Buy correction tapes and stop koing from other people
62. Stop wasting notebook pages
63. Reply letters quickly 
64. Not be lazy to apply sun-block before training
65. Be able to complete core exercises properly.
66. Not get muscle aches. ;/
67. Improve 2.4km timing
68. Wear higher socks.. :/
69. Drink less fizzy drinks
70. Eat less KFC.
71. Finish PTs at least 3 days before deadline.
72. Write more intellectual posts
73. Do more intellectual stuff. 
74. >3.6 gpa?
75. Be able to control emotions better
76. Stop wasting paper
77. Stop buying socks
78. Stop buying stuff but never using them
79. Remember to buy birthday/christmas presents
80. To talk nicely to juniors
81. Tryout for Psb! HAHA
82. Laugh more
83. Not get asthma attacks ):
84. Plan my schedule
85. Follow the schedule
86. Stop being angsty
87. Not be emo
88. Be happy everyday!
89. Not piss friends off.
90. Not piss teachers off
91. Be more careful when doing stuff
92. Not break so many things. 
93. Not spoiling things e.g. 0.28 pilot pens :/
94. Stop reading random people's blogs!
95. Eat more veggies
96. Eat more fruits
97. Not get flu. (i think i'm gonna take the anti flu jab)
98. BE ABLE TO GO OUT MORE ):
99. Not steal food from people.
100. Not waste time by e.g. listing so many resolutions that I know I probably won't achieve
101. Freedom. 

AHaha. I think I spent 2  hours on this. 



This quiz is quite.. cool? haha.

1. My friends are awesomezx!
2. I am listening tv, my bro's toy car, my dad's showering sound o.O
3. Maybe i should learn to not complain
4. I love my fwenzxcs :D
5. My plan is to a good girl. Hmm. I will.
6. I dont understand why there's sad stuff happening all the time);
7. I lost my voice. Seriously.
8. People say whatever they want to say?
9. I am missing people.
10. Love a four-letter word. HAHA
11. Somewhere over the rainbow ~
12. I am always searching for my wallet.
13. Forever is something that I don't think exists.
14. I never want to be sick, ever again
15. My mobile phone has annoying ugly scratches.
16. When i wake up I'll stare at my desk, then go back to sleep. Even if it's just 1 more minute.
17. I get annoyed when people/things annoy me?
18. Parties stands not. They sit! O:
19. Hugs or kisses? hugs?
20. Today is THE LAST DAY OF 2008
21. Tomorrow is the start of 2009(:
22. I really want to restart this year :/
23. I love lovable things...
24. What is your phone brand? Samsung. (suckssss)
25. What is the last 3 digits in your phone number? 660.
26. What does the 2nd message inyour inbox say? Aww. nevermind lah.
27. Who was the last person you rang? My bus uncle
28. Who was the last missed call from? Home.
29. What does the oldest msg in your inbox say? Why're you going to school tmr?
30. Who comes after J? Er. Jaslin? Huh?
31. Go to your sent messages- What does the tenth message say? Tuesday thursday saturday. But sat training stops after season.
32. Who is your network provider? Starhub. hubhub!
33. How many messages are there in your inbox? 100 plus. I don't want to walk back to my room and check.
34. Who do you have on speed dail 3? Nobuddy.
35. If you are on prepaid card, how much credit do you have? How would I know. "if"
36. Who's the first person who comes after C? Idk either, probably Cass Ang!
37. What do you have as your main ringtone? Crush by David Archuleta
38. Pass this quiz to 10 people
anyone who wants to do, haha.

Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Omg.
WHY THIS YEAR, WHY OUR BATCH ._.
I think I'm officially jinxed, wth. I remember asking someone
"Eh what if they get lazy and don't change our classes arh?"

...
punch me.


Title:
2009 Sec 2 girls class allocation
Body:
There will be NO reshuffling of classes for year 2009. 2008 sec 1 girls will be promoted to sec two within your same class.
Expires:
1/2/2009


I was kinda looking forward to new class, new environment, new people. But oh wells.
Guess I just gotta love '13' more. HAHA.
(What if I end up in 313, then I'll be in 113, 213, 313, 413. Haha that'll be very cool. :/)

Anyway, training yesterday was fun fun fun! (:

-Morning training-
Reached school quite late, so I didn't refill my tumbler. Stole all the water from Boh :D
(hi Boh, You're not O-yster anymore. Boh sounds nicer. You can still call me the cool e-lainer. I'm so nice, hahaha. )
Then I ran 20 minutes, while the rest ran 25 minutes :/
And I got super breathless and dizzy after that, luckily I brought my inhaler! ;D
I'm gonna push myself to finish the whole run tomorrow. YES ELAINE, YOU WILL ;D
May the force be with me! ;D
Then we did some drills, which were fun too. :/ Basically I think everything about yesterday's training was fun.

-lunch-
Lunch was KFC again :/
I'm getting very, very sick of KFC. -.- And the Far East KFC probably earns the most from RGS people. The whole place was just crowded with us.

-afternoon training-
Came back to school, joked around, and some of us started doing the CCAO stickers!
Our batch totally fail at stickers designing :/
EXCEPT JOY. HAHAHA
She coloured the whole sticker thingy with a dark blue marker, wrote "Raffles Netball" in pink glitter pen and called her masterpiece fireworks in the night sky. -.-
Then she took an undecorated sticker and called it Ghost in th Blizzard. O:
That was truely a masterpiece, hahaha!
Oh and then there was another 'masterpiece' called Ying and Yang.
(1 undecor-ed sticker + 1 sticker coloured black)
Aweesomeeee. ;D
Then we played games like Blind Mice at the garden o.O
But then we had to stop 'cuz there was an Athena statue at the garden, so we have to respect her. HAHA.
Our new 'coach' Carmen! She's in National's U21. Proooo right.
Short's sister. (:
They look alike.

-After training-
ICE BATH.
I never felt my legs so numb before ):
But then again, if it's numb, I won't feel anything. HAHA rubbish.
Min Chih was being paranoid as usual and asking "What if our toes chip off?"
haha. But I think ice bath is quite cool actually. Like so fun, you sit in ice water and shiver and watch everyone else scream and laugh. ;D

-CCAO-
I don't know what happened since when I got there, the sec 1s were still having a talk by Ms Goh :/ (oh gosh I typed Mrs Goh again. I think she's gonna scold me if i continue greeting her Mrs Goh )
So we went to the canteen and waited, but by the time I had to go already. So I didn't really get to see anyone except late people! Haha.
Rushed off to Dhoby Gaut. Or rather, TRIED TO.
Every single 190 that came was like completely full. So in the end I gave up and took 132 to Far East, then took MRT to Dhoby Gaut and went to purple line to go to Harbor Front. Then onboard Sentosa Express to Sentosa!


"Haha I'm on Sentosa Express now! :D Be jealoused, you're stuck in school. "
"huh? Where're you going? Home?"

Sure, I live in Sentosa. Be even more jealoused.
-.-


;
Wasn't I right, when I said you won't care?
Because you had chose to leave again.
You had chose to choose someone else, again.


Saturday, December 27, 2008

RAFFLES NETBALL;

LET NOTHING  STAND IN OUR PATH. 

DOUBLE CHAMPS, HERE WE COME! 






TEAM PRAYER(: 


Dear Heavenly Father, 
We thank You for letting us have found each other and this team.
We thank You for blessing us with good coach(es) and seniors to guide us, each other to learn from, and we pray that 
Lord will You give us the power and strength to stay strong throughout this competition period.
We pray that You will continue showing us your guidance on and off court, 
that You'll give us determination and perserverance no matter how tough it gets.
May You stay close to us when we seek Your knowledge and Your help.
Lord now we stand firmly and strong and put our trust in You;
believe in You for I know Lord, You have plans for us. 
Plans to prosper us, Lord.
Lord we're going to strive hard and bring Glory to You, Lord.
In Jesus' name we pray,
Amen.

I(we) can do all things through Christ who strengthens me(us).



haha I shall do a tag reply post (and re-reply those I already replied too!) so that the first thing you see when you enter my blog won't be that scary picture. :/ (which you will understand if you scroll down. :) 

Tag Replies: 

Zxkhwa: o.O okay..

Jaslinnn: Yoz jaslinerrr, relinked ;D 

Cai a saint: Haha relinked. And I relinked all those whom I can think of. Which is only you and Jaslin. :/ sorry lor. The picture doesn't look cool, it IS COOL ;D 

SuSsAn: YOZXC. :/ haha yeahh I remember you!(: Friday was fun yeah. You only opened your blog to invited readers, so I can't tag back! D:

Yirong: Yeah he isn't ): PB's quite funny though. LOL. I'm not sure, I hope it's someone nice! :D

Kailing: Haha. Doesn't have to be from tuition! E.G. Name starts with an E, ends with an E (hahaha) :D  ; Starts with a B, ends with an N; Starts with a K; Starts with a S; Starts with D ; many more. LOLz.  
Kailing: haha, saw ya. (: 

Cai a saint (re-reply) : YES HE WAS. O: Sadly, no more ): HAHA he was a bballer according to himself! I don't think Singaporean guys play netball. :/ I was watching a movie, walking around. You looked funneh when I saw you. :D 

Zxkhwa: haha you too (:

Qirui: Awww. Sad. (:

Yonlu: same to you! ;D 

Mich: haha MERRY XMAS TOO<3

Ash: MERRY XMAS <3

Merissa: *e-lainer and o-yster carolling session continues*

Kailing: haha, for fun, joy, laughter and peace. Whatever the order is supposed to be :/ Haha no way, don't wanna take with him. :/ You take with him yourself lah ._.


I am who I am, don't try to change me. 


I' start to think about what would happen if I had done everything the way you wanted me to;

Not going out, going home to mug right after school, no msning, no smsing, no socializing, no tv-ing, no chatting on the phone, no reading any books that aren't work related, no computer for more than 2 hours a day, no playing computer games, no netball, only studying, be a damn good girl, teach my brother how to read right after I finish doing my work, 

basically, 

no life. 

If I had actually done that, I guess I'd be an antisocial freak. And I'll probably be suffering from some psychological disorder now. I'm not the kind of person to let others take control; I need to lead my own life, make my own choices, do what I think is right. 

if I can't get the freedom, I'll fight for it.

I may not know what is 100% right, 100% percent wrong;
I may not be able to tell the distinct difference between black and white, but I'm confident to say that you don't either.  
We all know the existence of the grey spots. 
You may have gone through a lot more than me, had a lot more experiences than I had, but like me, you do not know what is totally right or wrong. 

What I want to do may not bring me any advantages, but it may not bring me any harms either. I don't see what's wrong with simply wanting to lead my own life myself, and go through those experiences myself

I know I do need you there to guide me, but not to control me. 
I am not a robot, I do not need batteries to function. I do not need to be programmed, I do not need a remote control to send signals to me so that I can work. 

Perhaps in your eyes, I'm only 4. But no, I'm a teen, 13 going 14. Yes, it's a young age still, but whatever you have experienced, I am experiencing. Or maybe I would have been experiencing them, if you hadn't disabled me. What I had been through's definitely less than what you have gone through, but that doesn't mean I know nothing and you know everything. 

I appreciate your protectiveness, your love, your caring for me. But I'd just like you to realise that it's time to at least give me a chance to make choices for myself. How would you know that it's not gonna work out when you haven't tried?

Oh wait, you don't. 

I had tried my best to do what you want me to do. But this time, I'd like to try. If you hadn't tried to understand me, how would you know what's best for me? It's just what you think, it's not what you know. 

And unless you try, you won't ever know. 

I'm sorry if the love I know I have for you is running out, fading away. 

The only One I'd let tell me what to do is God. 
;

I realise that when I'm angry/emo I tend to write more sensibly, compared to any other normal posts which I just randomly crap in. :/ 
Oh wells. 

;
after ages, you asked me how I was,
knowing that telling you the truth won't make a difference, 
I said I was okay. 

Friday, December 26, 2008
You know, (okay i guess you don't know)
I feel so compelled to just bitch. About a particular person. I know the following statements are probably just made in a moment of raging anger, and I may (or may not) regret whatever I am going to write, but I feel that that person must know that whatever her actions are have caused hurt to a lot of people.

Someone who dumps her 'ex-boyfriend' because he refused to read a book doesn't deserve his love. Someone who dumped another of her 'ex-boyfriends' because he refused to let her read his sms inbox in order to protect his friends' privacy doesn't deserve his love. Someone who steals her (ex) bestfriend's close friends by all means, and does despicable things to hurt her bestfriend's feelings, does not deserve her love.Someone who only remains as friends with her bestfriend just so as to gain advantage and popularity through her bestfriend doesn't deserve her friendship. Someone who doesn't appreciate others' love for her, doesn't deserve to be loved.

Someone who doesn't know how to love others properly doesn't deserve to be loved and doesn't have the right to criticize others of not knowing how to love.

Someone who made mistakes but doesn't own up to it doesn't deserve to be forgiven.

You don't deserve anything, unless you learn to see what others have done for you.
You don't deserve to be loved, unless you stop hurting everyone who loves you.
Stop pretending to be innocent and weak, stop making everyone care for you, before brushing them aside ruthlessly, as though they're the unwanted, accumulating dust.

I know, nobody is perfect, but at least most people try to be good.
No matter how imperfect a person is, that person tries the best she can. She tries to love, she tries to be loved, she tries to be better. Not perfect, but better.
No one can have everyone liking them in life, but at least they don't make everyone detest them. They don't hurt everyone who genuinely cares for them.
You? I don't see anything from you. You're like a soldier wearing your enemy's mask; clad in your enemy's armors, slashing and killing those from your own troop.

Remove that mask of yours, and look around you. You are lucky to have people who care for you no matter what you've done; lucky to have who you have with you.
You're just not lucky enough to know how to appreciate their presence, their caring, their love.

You may not read my blog, but one day, if you ever chance upon this post, please just take note of what I've written. I do not hate you, I just want you to stop hurting those around you. I do not know you very well, but the people you've hurt happened to be my friends; those whom I love very much. So please, just spare a thought for them.

My words may mean nothing to you. You may not like what I have written. I don't like what I have written either. I'm not good with words, most people know this. But I hope you understand what I'm trying to tell you.

;
Oh shit, I bitched again :/ Worse thing is, I don't really make much sense. Oh wells.
But seriously, I'm a in such a bad mood now. Plus my flu isn't making it ANY better at all.
I think I'm jinxed, like seriously. A few days before I had flu (the previous time), I was telling someone about how I haven't gotten flu in 2 years. Then I had flu.

This time, I wanted to drink my mom's water 'cuz I was seriously, seriously dying from thirst. Before I drank from my mom's bottle, she was like "Eh don't drink! I have flu."
Then I said something like "Aiya. Flu won't spread so easily lah."
Then I drank.
AND NOW I'M DOWN WITH FLU.
=.=
):

Okay, I shall end on a lighter note!
Thanks to all those who wished me Merry Christmas: MERRY CHRISTMAS TOOOO <3 And thanks to all those who mailed me christmas cards! They're really pretty (:


GOOD 27th DECEMBER ! hahaha.

May the light be passed on to you (:

Thursday, December 25, 2008
I'm slowly learning to forget the memories we shared,
slowly trying to forget your presence;
slowly trying to let go of the huge place you held in my heart,
slowying trying to forgive the hurt you've caused me,
and yet you're back now.

Why now, why when everything is almost done.
Why now, when I'm almost ready again.
Why can't you wait till I'm totally alright and won't be hurt again.
Why do you get to decide everything.
Why are you always hurting me, even though you said you don't want to.

Why can't you just disappear from my life, the way you did when I didn't want you to.

;

24TH DECEMBER WAS THE AWESOMEST DAY IN DECEMBER 2008 ;D
Being Christian is the best thing and the best choice I've ever made too (:

I went for some drama production called Save The World (I think) by City Harvest Church.
But before that, I went to watch Yes Man at Plaza Sing (haha cai a saint, does that answer your question?:) It was SUPER, DUPER HILARIOUS. You should go watch it too manz!
I won't give spoilers. :/ But it's totally worth the 8.5 bucks that I paid ;D

Anywayz, the drama was awesomely hilarious too, and it was a really good performance put up by people who didn't have professional training at all. Service was cool, since it was probably my first proper church service, haha. And there was candlelight service too! ;D
SO COOL. MY FIRST TIME TOO. :/
The whole sight after everyone's candles were lit was just magnificent and beautiful (:
Too bad I didn't get to take any pictures 'cuz my phone ran outta batt ):
The whole thing ended at around 9.30, then everyone walked around shaking hands with random people and wishing them Merry Christmas ;D So cool manz. It was kinda touching, and I could feel the Christmas Spirit and love all around me. (:
So we waited until the place cleared up a little, before leaving. I didn't want it to end ): I haven't had so much fun or been so happy for such a long time!
I met new people and made new friends! <3

After that, I took mrt to Pasir Ris where my dad fetched me and then we went to chalet. Reached the chalet place at around 11, ate a little and played around with Esther(Neo), Rachel, Zolven, Jolene (spelling?), Clarence(Koh) and my bro. Basically we were just trying to stop my brother from switching off all the lights and screaming and shouting and fighting with Jolene (spelling?). When I reached there 2 of my friends have already left ):

Seriously man, kids are so hard to take care of. -.-

We left the place at around 1 plus and reached home at 2. Then I quarrelled with my parents and I slept at 4 because I was doing random stuff and writing notes. -.- So I woke up at 12 plus today, and lied in bed until 2 plus when my mom went to take a nap, so that I won't have to talk to her. :/
I haven't talked to anyone in my family (except bro) for the whole of today. Oh wells.
Christmas. Hmm.

So, that's my Christmas. Basically, nothing. HAHA
I wish Christmas Eve was Christmas!

Merry Christmas and hope you had a way better one than mine! ;D

Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Each day I look forward to,
another disappointment I go through.

I hate waiting,
and you know that too.

;

Mr Thio isn't in charge of Netball anymore, but PB instead!
:/ I can't help but laugh a bit, don't know why. Oh wells.
Mr Thio's quite nice though.
I haven't blogged about Friday, I know. I WILL. I PROMISE. SOON. hahah not that anyone's interested to know what happened but it's a self note that I'll blog about it, :D

Training yesterday was... tiring. Afterall, there was a 2 weeks break! But I was having badddd muscle aches 'cause 2 days before training was was jogging up/down the hill and didn't stretch properly. :/
20 min was death. I survived though ;D
The rest of the training was fun <3
Quite, I guess. Except Now I really have no idea which position I'm playing ):

Tomorrow's Christmas Eve! :DD
I'm so looking forward to it: Morn training; movie; Christmas drama thingy; CHALET!
With family and Dad's friends' families. SO COOL RIGHTT.
But it's not for staying ): Oh wells.
Haha I gotta go print the Netball attendance sheet, buaiixzc!

Saturday, December 20, 2008
It's quite late now,
but 19th December 2008 was an awesome day!
Blog more about it tomorrow.
yay another picture edited :/

Friday, December 19, 2008
 OMGGGG
I'm such a hopeless idiot.
Look. That's the olympic Brazillian volleyballer, Ana Paula.
Look at her sports bra/jersey (idk, haha)

It says Bra, which stands for Brazil right?
At first i didn't know, so when I saw it i thought 

"Obviously that's a bra. What else can it be. =.="

-shoots self again-





Thursday, December 18, 2008
omg hahaha
i tried to create a new email (hotmail) account.

So I tried elaine@hotmail.com
(not available, duh)
Then elainee@hotmail.com
not available.
elaineee@hotmail.com
not available
elaineeee@hotmail.com
not available.
elaineeeee@hotmail.com
not available
elaineeeeee@hotmail.com
not available
elaineeeeeee@hotmail.com
not available
elaineeeeeeee@hotmail.com
finally available -.-

people like 'e's a lot, HAHA

-shoots self-

[edit] Does anyone know anyone with the last name Pie?
hahahahaha. [/edit]

Wednesday, December 17, 2008
I finally understand why Mr Lau told some chem students of 2nd semester that he will pinalise anyone who includes authentic mothballs on their mothball poster for the Chem PT.

MOTHBALLS STINK.
REALLY BADLY.

LIKE SHIT.
okay maybe not as bad as shit because the smell of shit doesn't stain on your clothes and you don't have to walk around smelling it for half an hour until the smell goes off.
._.

I don't know how many packets of mothballs my mom left in my closet, because now almost all my shirts stink of mothball.
Stupid naphthalene, stupid diffusion and sublimation whatever.
NOW MY CLOTHES STINK.
>:/

I'm such a complain queen.
Complain mood. HAHA

Oh and one more thing to complain about :/

ANYONE WHO DOESN'T LIKE ANY COMPLAINS OR BAD REMARKS MADE ABOUT A MOVIE YOU HAVEN'T WATCHED (ie twilight) AND IS DYING TO WATCH SHOULD NOT READ ON. okay even if you do, I don't mean to be. uh. you know. Spoiling anything for you hahaha O:

I'm talking rubbish, as usual >:/

And that's, the Twilight movie hasn't been as good as what I expected it to be. ):
Shimei and a whole load of others agreed!
(and that includes movie reviewers and The Learning Lab)
I watched it on the Internet after I heard from Dayana Dana that it's going to be rated M18 in Singapore, because of a short sexual scene o.o (which, in the end it's only PG13. Oh wellsh hahaha)
Anyway I skipped a lot of the movie because I found it quite boring :/
And Learning Lab did a movie review on Twilight too, and said that the movie wasn't up to standard compared to other normal Hollywood blockbusters, blah blah. And Kristen Stewart wasn't suitable to take up the role of Bella Swan 'cause of her sullen face(Bella should be enjoying every moment she has with Edward, so she should be happy happy. blahblah)? o_O
Okay yes. So I'm quite disappointed. ):
Not that I'm a big fan of Twilight serious exactly anyway. haha.

Okay.
Oh and why does the non-fat yogurt I ate today taste so fattish.
HAHA I think there's something wrong with me, I can find fault with almost every single thing today.
Sorry ):

Zomfg.
I hate mothballs -.-

PROJECT BRIAN'S TOOTH!

hahaha.
I think my mom can be a black market dentist O:
Anyone who needs your (shaky milk) tooth plucked out and doesn't have enough money can go look for her. :/
Jokes. haha

My brother's first milk tooth was plucked out today. :/
At first he was like screaming that he doesn't want it plucked out 'cuz it'll be damn pain. Then my mom insisted that if she didn't pluck it out but let it drop naturally, the new tooth that grows will be super out of place. So she took a string and tied it around the shaky tooth and pulled it out. (like she did to all my milk teeth. o_O)
And the tooth FLEW out of my bro's mouth and no one has any idea where it landed.
After the tooth has been plucked out, my brother stood there and shouted "QUICK! QUICK!"
He doesn't even know that the tooth has been plucked out (and gone missing) already. So much for the I-don't-want-it-plucked-cuz-it's-pain!
-.-

Then he went around covering his mouth for the next half hour because he doesn't want anyone to see his "ugly mouth"
hahahaha funny.

So, yes.
You can go to my mom if you want your tooth plucked but has no moneh!
O:


haha jokes.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008
I hereby proclaim my tagboard dead,
unless some saints decide to revive it. :D

Sunday, December 14, 2008
early Merry Christmas to everyone! ;D
haha.
Thanks Vegg and Mich(;

The christmas party yesterday was such a disappointment.
THEY CHANGED THE MAGICIAN.
And then I realise I rather have the usual magician to perform 'cuz he has so many more 'cooler' tricks. The new magician's performance was... boring. ._.
But I ate a lot, hahaha! There was so much food! O:
And guess who I saw.

ANDREA WIDJAJA CHEW ING GUM.

Her grandmother lives here, I didn't know.
Andrea had her (rebonded again) hair down, was wearing this super feminine shirt and a short, short skirt. (not exactly mini though)
When she walked past me I was like "eh. familiar face leh."
THEN I REALISED IT'S HER.
She looks so different and girly in home clothes :D

[edit]
o_O random photo of light sticks. [/edit]

I went shopping with my mom today,
Mom and I bought a pair of jeans each.
She made me try on so many pairs of jeans as though I get paid for each pair that I try on.
._.
We walked around for another 2 hours and didn't buy anything at all.
That's why I don't really like going to shop with my mom :/
Always walk walk walk then try clothes try try try then think think think then, oh, not buying -.-

Oh well, I'm going to watch movies on the internet;D
bye!

Friday, December 12, 2008
Sometimes, you make me feel like a baby,
crying, even howling over a toy that Mama won't buy me.

Except, there's no toy involved, no Mama involved.
Once again, just you and me.

and you walk away again, so cruelly;

Christmas is supposed to be the season to spread and feel the love all around you;
yet I feel the love from (almost) everyone I love, except from you.
From you, all I feel is that deafening silence, the indifference, the uncaring. Our past may mean no more to you, but it still means everything to me, and perhaps it'll mean so much to me for a much longer time.

Those words that used to be casually said to you;
it now takes a whole great deal of courage to say them to you again.
I'm afraid of the indifference you'll show me

You used to say so much to me, we had so much to talk about;
but now it's nothing but silence over the phone.

Yet,
I'm not ready to give you up.
I'm not ready to forget.


;
Annual Christmas party at condo tomorrow,
I loved it since young (;
There's gonna be a magic show! hahaha I'm still such a Kiddo, I love magic. ;D
But it gets more boring each year 'cause there aren't many new tricks and the Magician's always the same guy ._.
I remember last year I sat on the floor with all the kids living at my condo, laughing at whatever silly things the magician did. I felt so young and innocent and trouble-less ;D

I love Magic.

Dumbledoo.

[laugh] I'm such an idiot omg. When I wanted to write this post, I typed ... "www.theblogger.com" and waited for it to load. When the screen showed some random page, I thought '... Was Blogger closed down?'' -.- [/laugh]

P.S. Is it possible for one to hate someone whom he/she doesn't even know, except for that person's name, school and age?

wait till you know about her.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008
ZEE WAR.


Elaine: HAHA luckily I don't need specs. But I going to see optimist tomorrow ):

*OPTICIAN

Jaslin: AHAH so you're the pessimist


Pessimician: Elaine
Optician: Jaslin




hahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaa battle O:

Life is designed in such a cruel, unforgiving way that most of the time, when you realised that you've made a mistake, it's usually too late to change anything.

Even if you manage to get it covered up a little, things never go back to the way they would have been if you never made that mistake. That's just the way things work.

So to add on to the guilt or the regret (or oftentimes, both), the person who made that mistake is made to dwell upon whatever happened, letting the events flow through his head, over and over again. He is unable to completely forget what has happened, unless something happens which allow him to do so. Usually, that's forgivenness, or sometimes, just a change of events that make it more like the way it should have been.

So he says, "Why cry over spilt milk?" and tries to continue life the way it had been, before any mistakes had been made. But he realised, if he had spilt his milk on carpet, a stain shall remain on the carpet, hard to clean off. It's a constant reminder to him of his mistake(s), a stain that relentlessly drills into his regret. It's pure pain.

Another thing he would say is, "Why did I do that. I should have known this would happen. If only I didn't ..."
So he realises the existence of the word "if", which he had placed in his sentence. Without "if", the sentence itself does not make any sense. But it is also the word "if" that proves to him that whatever happened had already happened, no matter how much he wished he didn't do that, he had.

I'm typing rubbish, but a blog is an online journal, isn't it?
So I'm writing this post for myself, as a constant reminder to myself that I should think properly before I do anything, anything at all that may cause me to regret what I've done. It's a small reflection of my mistakes made so far. Maybe not all, but just a small amount; those that I know I cannot make up to, no matter how much I try.


I tried, I really did.
All I can do now is to pray that things would go back to the way they were before,
before my stupidity. I thought whatever I did would probably make it better for me, it was out of selfishness. But it turned for the worse.

I know deep inside, that things will never be the way they were meant to be.
I'm sorry to you,
sorry to myself.
Sorry to whatever happened

Tuesday, December 9, 2008
holidays are so boring there's practically nothing to post about at all.
I hope I get to go to Malaysia :/

Monday, December 8, 2008
My mom is trying to convince me that there is a ghost in my house who steals her stuff.
Today, she said her purse went missing, and she was definitely sure that she did not misplace it. Hence, she said a ghost took it probably. Plus last time the money she put on her purse (which is forever left at the same position, according to her) went missing too.
So i panicked for like half an hour, freaking out because I'm very scared of ghosts :/
Then my mom told me that she found her purse in her drawer -.-

But if there really is a ghost in this house, I'll probably stop sleeping forever O:


I tried to cry, but the tears won't fall out,
so I realised that you had taken away the place you left in my heart.
Your voice acted like a drug to me,
Whilst I'm in rehabilitation now,
I still miss you

Saturday, December 6, 2008
Sometimes, no matter how perfect something or someone may seem at a moment in time, when it's all over, we have to learn to let go. No matter how hard it is, no matter how much you know deep down inside that they're/it's important and will always take up a space in your heart, you have to just forget.
Whether it's sad instances, or beautiful memories, we forget them. Or at least, just pretend to have forgotten about them, because we all know it won't come back.

I hate to admit it, but you're right. Nothing lasts forever,
not you, not me, definitely not us.

;

2 weeks break from Netball training now, I shall try and keep myself in training state! ;D
I did a set of leg raise exercise, 4 sets of row boat (okay okay) around 30 seconds each, lalala! ;D

Tomorrow I'm going to the gym I think.
2.4km everyday training is a killer, but I think not running at all and then suddenly having to run so much will be worse. SO I SHALL FORCE MYSELF TO GO TO THE GYM AT LEAST TWICE A WEEK :/
(although I know I probably won't)
Oh wells, haha.
Time flies so quickly, school's reopening again in 3 weeks. I'm looking forward to a new year, and yet not. I'm declaring myself a tired, bored loser );

Friday's training was pretty fun, except for the running part :/
My timing was crap! Oh well.
But the rest of the drills were fine :D
After that, I went for lunch with Kailing and then to tuition.
Kailing was freaking out over her first tuition ._.
After I went home, I slept and slept and slept and slept. I woke up at 6.20am today. -.-
Then, I slept more today. I have no idea how i'm gonna sleep later, oh wells O:

To a certain someone(s):
Yes, I'm upset with you, but that doesn't change anything, does it?
Not even the direction which the wind blows.
O:
haha random.

Thursday, December 4, 2008
I think there'll be 2.4km run everyday training from now onwards (actually from a month ago onwards) until the end of season,
so that means death and total screwing up for me during every training now ):

My stamina is total suck suck suck suck suck suck. Oh wells.
My parents want me to stop training next year. ):
No way man! I love netball no matter how bad it can be sometimes. Or how tired and how much I don't want to train. :/ hahaha.

Yesterday's training was tiring and my stomach started to hurt like hell after the fourth round. So I went to the toilet with Melissa. An Australian school (Lynwoods I think) came and played with Bdiv! I think Bdiv next year will be really strong. Hence Bekah required Zhen to let us play games with Bdiv every morning next year to hone our skills quickly and get us better prepared, haha

After bathing -> Lunch at Plaza Singapura KFC! <3
I wanted to save money and order Shrooms burger meal. THEN I saw Merissa ordering 2pcs chicken meal, and MinChih sharing buddy meal with Melisa. SO I DECIDED TO BUY 2PCs CHICKEN MEAL TOOOOOOO.
I LOVE CHICKEN<3
It was sinful though.
Then a lot of them walked over to Macs to buy icecream. So I went to buy one too. :/
That's lots of food.
Then we walked around, got tired, and went to sit down at Macs with Richelle, Melissa and Minchih. I shared Mocca Frappe with Melissa, while Minchih paid 10 cents for that and took a few sips. THEN THEN THEN we walk walk walk, went to hokkaido icecream and I shared a cup with Melissa and Dawne.
Then we walked over to Aunt Anne's and bought more stuff.
I stole a bit of Melissa's whatever you call that bread like thingy.
Then Jaslin wanted to go to 7eleven, so we all went there and bought big gulp.

-.- so much for my plan to save money!

Singapore Sports School is such a pretty place! So big and all that :D
And the netball courts are like right at the entrance ._.
Netball is so important, hahaha!
After the matches, me, Akoo, Jas and Zhen took a ride to Bishan in Bekah's car! ;D
Thanks Bekah.
I went to KFC to buy another piece of chicken for dinner :/
That's 1.5 chickens killed to satisfy my needs. -guiltshot-
hahahaha. :/
Was tired, fell asleep while smsing Kailing about the sec 2 history book! o_o

bye, today is such a boring day that i'm going to kill myself.
cya in heaven ;D

Tuesday, December 2, 2008
If i were a chicken, I'd be a very gay and happy chicken.
Too bad I'm not a chicken.

Too bad all those stuff aren't true, haha.

Too bad I'm Elaine!